A new blog… I started my marathon at a sprint. Now I’ve hit the wall. Content. What’s the purpose of a blog without blog posts?
It’s the same anticipation as having a new notebook full of empty pages. Space for so many of the words swirling in my head…
Then there’s reality. A fuzzy brain that loses the next sentence as I scramble to make my thoughts visible. The busyness of days with three home-schooled kids. Endless piles of laundry. Soccer practice. Piano lessons. Making sure everyone is fed and where they need to be, when they need to be there.
I wouldn’t have this blog if it weren’t for depression. But the thing that often gives me my most meaningful words, also steals my words. Depression gives me words I need to share, then makes me believe that my words are worthless, that no one needs them. I shouldn’t waste my time or presume I can help anyone.
Sometimes I just don’t care.
Maybe you can relate
The relentless negative thoughts that make you doubt everything you know is true. The certainty you can never be enough, that you’re the only one in the world without purpose.
And then the exhausting apathy.
So, how do we reclaim our purpose when we don’t want to do anything?
Life goes on, regardless of how we feel about it.
No one wants to get to the end of a day, a week, a year, a life, and feel like it was wasted. We all want to feel like we accomplished something. The hardest times in life are when we feel like we lack purpose.
But, truth is, if you’re alive, you have a purpose. Whatever it looks like, it’s important.
Six things to do when you don’t want to do anything
Get up. When you’re not in the middle of bout of depression, it seems like something that doesn’t need to be said. If you want to accomplish something today, Get up and get moving! But it does need to be said. Get out of bed. Get off the couch. Get off the internet.
Fill up. Even on good days, there are two important things I need to give me the energy to get through my day productively, with grace: Breakfast and God. Eat a nutritious breakfast and a healthy portion of God’s Word seasoned with prayer.
Pray through. God is always listening and we always have access to all we need to get us through the next moment and accomplish what God wants us to do. Ask Him for it. Wherever you are, whenever you remember your need.
Push through. Many days you’re not going to feel like doing the next thing. Whether it’s brushing your teeth, sorting another load of laundry, going to work, or smiling at the person who seems to be as sad or stressed as you. Do your best any way.
Hold on. If you suffer from severe depression or anxiety, you have days that just need to be survived. Do what’s necessary to take the next breath and get to the next morning. Hopelessness doesn’t last forever. There’s always light at the end of the tunnel.
Move on. On gray days and as the darkness of black ones lifts, don’t be passive. Choose to dig in and make an effort. Take care of your whole self. You’re not one-dimensional. Don’t try to take on depression on only one front.
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