Men as Medication
Modern society’s lies about sex, undiagnosed bipolar disorder, and lack of self-worth created a mess that almost destroyed my family. Self-medicating with men is not a healthy way to cope with the symptoms of mental illness. What would it take for me to recognize the destructiveness of my choices?
I sat in my uncomfortable metal folding chair as the giant tent cleared. A few hundred women gathered on a campground to step back from the day-to-day, enjoy fellowship, and praise God. I felt alone. No one could possibly understand how I felt. None of the women I came with would even think about doing what I did.
The speaker had asked us to picture our heart like a house. With others, I had silently asked God to open the closed doors, light up the dark corners I would rather keep hidden, and blow through with a cleansing wind. I did not expect much. But something had to give.
Sometimes God grants me an image, like a mini-movie, that illustrates the invisible spiritual side of a situation. For a moment, I stood in an open space, the only walls diaphanous curtains, billowing and floating in a strong breeze. Everything was white, and bathed in light. Uncluttered. Peaceful. Clean…
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My brain is noisy today. Reminding me of all that’s wrong. All that I can’t fix. All that I can’t control.
I don’t know what to do with my arms. My legs. My self.
We’ve created a culture in which it’s natural for women to want Christian Grey. How?
You’re worth more.
An Olympic Effort: Run Your Race
Do you know what happens when you do things that go against what you believe is true? Cognitive dissonance. Our brains are off-kilter when we claim to believe Biblical truths, but don’t give them priority and thereby live otherwise. It’s one basic way our spiritual health influences mental health.